name: Rainmeadow
bio: A small, gaunt tom with short calico fur, a white chest and muzzle, and blue-green eyes that always look like they're on the verge of tears. There's something so quiet about him, so mournful and nervous and tired. Shy to a fault, and insecure at the best of times, he speaks only in hushed murmurs and soft whispers, never raising his voice and rarely looking other cats in the eye when he speaks. He doesn't think himself worthy of much, and first began to give up hope long ago. He can still feel it slowly trickling out through the cracks in his skin like thin, milky water. He is rather serious, and, dedicated almost obsessively to doing the right thing, goes above and beyond what is expected of him - to dangerous, self-destructive extents; he forgoes sleep, forgets to eat, and puts himself in harm's way for those who wouldn't do the same for him. The stress has left him scrawny and malnourished - but he can't stop working; he can never stop working. It's happened too many times before, and he won't let it happen again - he won't lose another life because he couldn't save them. He feels the death of every Clanmate like a bullet wound, receding deeper and deeper into himself with every life lost. Broken hearts, after all, are no more than the currency of those who care a little too much. Haunted and quiet, he has few friends, and has learned not to care - learned to tell himself it's for the best, learned not to let it hurt. He stays by himself most of the time, focusing on his work. Because of his minimal contact with other cats, and his detachment from the camaraderie of the rest of the Clan, he's awkward in social situations and doesn't ever quite know how to act. He has been teased his whole life for liking other toms - something he has always denied, and has yet to accept about himself. For now, it is still a point of shame, one he prefers to keep hidden away.

plot ideas: i'm not too sure honestly, because i'm only just starting to get a hang of all the ins and outs and intricacies of all the clans and their relationships, but i'd love to develop ideas further down the track!! my first thought was maybe the leaders and their medicine cats could all meet to try to broker peace, but a fight breaks out and some of the medicine cats end up being kidnapped and held hostage by the other clans as bargaining chips? that's quite a big, site-wide plot, but i just thought i'd throw it in the ring! c:

and i haven't started many rp threads yet, but here's an example ♥