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Sean rolled a smooth stone around in his paw. He lied down on the floor of the tunnels forcing cats to walk over him or on him. He knew he needed to give it time, for the kits that did return to warm up to him. But he was the one that gave them up, he thought he was doing the right thing. DayClan was a friend to the Regime, his kits would live with his sister and not see him in his depressed state and like the Regime they typically lived very peacefully. Of course things hadn't ended up that way, but in theory it should have worked. More than that though because he gave them up and now that they were back he felt that he needed to leave. Shule didn't forgive him and the kits probably resented him. If the people who mattered most to him didn't liked him then why stay?
He let out a sigh, no one was invited to his pity party. Well except for the passer bys that were forced to go around him. But nobody else! Not even his hamster Snowy.
Whatever self-deprecating soliloquy was going on in his head was rudely interrupted by the sharp jab of a paw into his side. Then another jab. And then another. The kicks weren't very hard at all, but just forceful enough to try and urge Sean back onto his feet. Finally, when it was clear the tom was ignoring all of it, the cat responsible for the prodding let out an annoyed sigh and sat down on the dirt beside him, still poking him with their paw every few seconds.
Now usually, Eclipse took enjoyment in kicking Sean while he was down, but this time it just wasn't worth it.
"Come on, you bat-brain. Get up. This is a new level of pathetic, even for you."
"Do you ever think that some people are just born with a hole in their heart? Like any love and positiveness will naturally just slip out and the more damaged your heart gets the bigger that hole is before any happiness at all slips out the moment it came in? Cause, originally I lied here and thought I just had to get it out of my system, but I just don't know if I stand back up again if anything remotely positive will warm me up. I mean, I looked at Green and I said, "Nice color, vomit green, didn't know you made yourself sick." And I felt nothing. I think I'm dying," Sean said, suddenly staring up seriously at Eclipse to see what she thought. Maybe it wasn't depression, maybe he had some brain eating virus and now that his emotions were gone, next would be his mind and then his entire body. He stared up at the ceiling suddenly wondering what that would be like, then remembered, he felt nothing and lied his chin back down.
At least he felt something when Eclipse kicked him.
Blind Protector help her. He was starting to get philosophical, that's never a good sign. How was she supposed to respond to any of that? This felt like more of a job for a Guider or even the Chaman...but there was no one else around anymore except her. Eclipse wasn't sure whether to feel exasperation or genuine pity. Her ears fell back against her head nervously, and she shuffled her paws. "You're not dying, Sean. You've actually died before, you of all cats should know when you're really dying. And...what you're feeling...it's not special, either." The words came out without thinking, and just like that the feeling of dread hit Eclipse like a brick. Oh no. Oh no no no. She was going to have to open up, wasn't she? To Sean, of all cats. Taking a deep breath, she quickly avoided eye contact as she continued. "More cats down here have been through that than you might think."
Sean watched as a cat past by as he attempted to grab onto their leg for them to drag him away from Eclipse, "Heeeelp. She's being nice to me, I'm scared," He wailed after the cat before dropping his paw helplessly to the ground.
His exotic green gaze wandered back over to Eclipse. They didn't seem dull anymore and he let out a long sigh. Cause he knew he was a different kind of sad. That maybe he wasn't the tragic cat in the forest, but probably was the most suckiest Regime cat. He did kill his wife who was also his sisters best friend. He also started a war to get his kits back from going out with the wrong girl and they only managed to get back wrong kit. One who he locked away cause he was afraid he'd leave and then he did and barely lived only to get killed by Kotori. And that was only scraping the surface without going into the guilt he felt about losing Brizo. He felt more sorry about losing Brizo than giving up his own kits. He had lost his kits, but they were happy and safe, who knew where Brizo was. Maybe she was happy and safe, but he'd never know. He'd never know a lot of things that he did wrong and he knew in his heart the massive problem was he couldn't forgive himself.
"I'm just sad. I can shake it off and happily talk to you and I will feel completely fine in the moment. But I'll be alone and it'll cling to me again. Everything I do to try to..." He waved his paw in a circle trying to come up with the right words, "Make amends? Make peace! Every time I try to make peace I just feel more anxious about the way I made peace and more guilty. That's the thing, I have a conscience, if I didn't have one I think I'd be happier."
Eclipse was right, it was never good when he started to think.
This had to be the worst day of her life. She was actually, legitimately, feeling sorry for him.
...Was she feeling sorry because he was sad, or was it her own conscience feeling sorry it had contributed so much to the problem? For as long as she could remember, Eclipse had been the one cat, not counting anyone directly related to Sean, who had always held his mistakes against him. She had never let him forget what he had done, refused to forgive and move on. In her younger years, when the memory of Haku's near-death was still fresh, she had been convinced that she was justified and righteous in her hatred of Sean, to the point of turning her own tykes against him. Even now, standing there and watching him wallow in his own misery, there was a tiny voice in the back of her mind hissing at her to just get up and walk away. Everything that's happened to you is his fault! Isn't he the one who lost your friend Brizo? Wasn't it his son who murdered your beloved San? Pebble was like a sister to you, and now she's dead because of him and his family! He deserves this. Why should you feel sorry for him? You shouldn't care. You DON'T care.
Eclipse laid down beside him there, right in the middle of the tunnel. Her pitch-black pelt brushing up against his. "A conscience is a good thing to have, Sean. It means that no matter what happens, you still want to be, that you're still trying to be a good person. But it doesn't help if you bury all of your guilt and fear away as you do. If there's something that you can't live with, sooner or later you have to talk about it. And right now, I've got some time to spend, so...bare your soul to me, I guess. I swear on the Blind Protector I won't tell anyone about this." She did care. Perhaps she always had.
"Well, this does seem like a nice private place to talk," Sean said as a few cats walked over him.
"Let's see, there was the time I stole prey from Lilith, except we were kits and she nearly starved to death, but I didn't care cause I just wanted her gone. I was the one that threw a rock at Shule when I was a cadet, but I never confessed. I just thought she was cute and didn't know how to approach her. But I'm pretty sure she took it out on someone else. Then my mom never wanted me to end up like her, but I still fell in love with a league cat. Except I did what my mom always wanted to do to my father and murdered her in the heat of the moment. My daughter Adanna hated me for it, I thought if she slashed my eye out we'd be even, but she just wanted to kill me. I always wanted to kill my dad, Kotori always wanted to kill me. I think it's just normal for children to want to kill their father," Sean shrugged, "I don't know. This is just depressing. Maybe if I get cooler and better memories the old bad memories won't seem as bad. I should go make fun of people, that cheers me up. Maybe we could go out and have a little picnic with a side of gossip?"
